She has me tied up – at last. She tells me to open my mouth wide. I do as I am told. She takes a small bottle and paints its white, medical-tasting contents over my back molars. I trust her though I am dubious about what she is doing.
She leads me around her fetish universe, still in bondage, to witness her slaves suffering in every way – clearly gleeful about their torment. All are men. I am the only woman.
After a few moments, I feel a strange sensation in my mouth. I spit into my hand and am shocked to see the enamel from my teeth is flaking away.
“What’s going on?” I ask her
‘Have you never had your teeth nerve endings stimulated? It’s the ultimate joy,” she says. She laughs as I spit my teeth onto the floor, panicking at the way in which my teeth’s nerves are now exposed as if I have had a Wisdom tooth removed.
I want to trust her, trust that she can take me into sub-space by stimulating the now-exposed nerves, but I am scared. As she talks, pointing out tortures various men are suffering, I feel more of my teeth falling out and spit them into my hand.
I am terrified about what she will do – she now has me bound. We are no longer walking around. I am at her mercy.
“What about consent?” I ask.
“You knew what I was like before we met up,” she smiles, wickedly, her face now cruel in a way I didn’t think was possible.
I wake, terrified, shaky. I do not want to return to sleep for fear of falling back into the nightmare. I do as I often do with bad dreams: check the analysis online to see if I can make sense of it.
“This symbol has both negative and positive meanings:
Insecurities, especially about a personal loss
Anxiety about sexual experience
A compromise that is costly to you
Life changes and “growing pains”
Fear of becoming older
Signs of personal expansion
Wish or need to nurture yourself more carefully
An invitation to explore feelings of loss and personal growth
A call to look at your support system
The Jungian interpretation: Times of renewal and “rebirth” “
I fall back to sleep in contentment. She has entered even more deeply into my head than I had realised. I do not mind. I enjoy having her there.
I make a note to tell her that dental play is a hard limit.
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