I love my partner very much, with have been with each for over a year, we do have a fun and wonderful sex life - when it is possible.
We are a young couple and are each others first partner. I discovered sex at the same time I began having it. I had never intentionally read anything rude in my life and had always felt wrong to see lewd images.But now, it's all different. I really enjoy reading erotica especially a certain fantasy (B&D) which I know I will never want to explore in such an extreme way in real life and I'm not bothered about the lewd images anymore.
However, I feel guilty. I feel guilty I enjoy these stories soo much and read them often. Shouldn't I be solely focussed on my boyfriend? I love him so much, I wouldn't ever want to hurt him or make him feel like I am not satisfieed with him - because I am. I am more than satisfied I am in heaven. We have gorgeous, beautiful sex, but then I do catch the odd naughty thought of him doing some of the stuff in the stories I read and get that bit more turned on.What should I do? Should I cut down reading these stories (I know you may be the wrong people to ask as you are an erotics stories site...) and channel all my sexual energy into my relationship? Or should I just see them as two seperate things, and relax and enjoy my body?I tend not to read the stories when we have regular sex, but if he ejaculates too quickly and I have to go home then I may read soem stories as I am still really turned on.
Is this wrong?

Cliterati repliesMasturbation and sex are two different things. As long as you're not looking at illegal images (snuff, paedophilia) and aren't addicted to erotica, there's no need to be concerned. Signs of addiction include: if you'd rather read erotica than be with your partner (whether having sex or not); If you're spending money you can't afford on erotica; if you miss important meetings because you're reading erotica. If any of these things are true, get to the doctors and have a chat. However, f-rom the sounds of it, you just like using it every so often, and that's fine.Masturbation doesn't imply that you love your partner any less. And you certainly shouldn't feel bad for not focussing entirely on him; your own sexuality is as important as his, and getting to know your own body is a valuable part of building sexual confidence - not to mention being a lot of fun!If you want to include him more, perhaps you could explore your fantasies together (verbally, rather than living them out as you say you don't want to do this.). Maybe you could read him a story or watch a video together? Test the water first though - start by discussing the mildest aspect of your fantasy to establish his reaction.